I am home today because my 19 year old daughter lost a friend. He left a 4 page note and he shot himself away from home. He was only 19. Another friend who was on a police ride along happened to be with the officers when they went to the kids house to take a missing persons report, while they were there the coroners office called and asked them if they had a son, and then asked them to come down and ID the body. How awful. Now these kids who knew him are walking around like zombies wondering how and why didn’t he ask for help. It’s the most selfish thing a person can do.
Have most of the shopping done for Thanksgiving and on Wednesday will have kid#1 take me out so I can finish. I need some Chambord liqueur to use with my trifle. I am making a cranberry trifle and I will pour the chambord over the pound cake, then the cranberries, then the whipped cream and then repeat till the bowl is full. Put it in the fridge and keep it cool. It will be yummy, I will cook my cranberries with a bit of pie spice that always adds to it.
I am getting a little tired now, just took my pills, I can function at a certain level. My mom says I was mumbling this morning. Most likely. After I take the Klonopin I feel okay but a little spacey. If I take the Norco on an empty stomach you might as well get the rubber room ready. But it helps the arm and that is good. When I was at the store and passed the display where they have the cooked chickens and ribs ready to go, I said I could just stand under this light forever it felt so good and warm.
On the medical side:
1. I have to send a form to the Federal Security Director of the TSA at LAX for permission to wear my jacket at the exit. ( what pfiffle is this?)
2. I have called my claims examiner two times in the last 5 days asking about the approval for the new doctor. What have I got? No calls no letter.
3. So my shoulder is miserable, my back is crunching as we speak and life goes on.
At least God loves me and I cling to that knowledge, that no matter what happens in life, he is there for me, holding me, supporting me, and loving me.
so that’s it for now. more after the feast. guess i’d better get some pumpkin pies.